Did you know that your story is truly inspiring?

Hello friends around the world. Long time no see. I have been working on a project which is not quite up and running yet but watch this space, I will have more on that soon.

In the meantime I wanted to tell you about someone else’s pretty amazing project in the Infertility world.

If you have followed my journey for awhile you may recall that I got myself a Fertility Coach after things had been going on for awhile. Her name was Karenna and she honestly kept me sane and grounded through my last IVF cycle, waiting for the genetic testing results, through my miscarriage and subsequent pregnancy preparing for my VBAC. I honestly cannot rave about her enough. Anyway, Karenna is very passionate about helping women who are stuck on this particular shit of a journey (ummm my words, not hers. She is much more nicely spoken than potty mouth me), and she is creating an online space called Your Fertility Hub which she intends to make into something pretty damn amazing. Part of that is collecting people’s stories.

I’m just going to leave the blurb she has about this below for you to check out. There are links you can follow to submit your own story. You can also contact her directly if you are interested in contributing further content for her site.

Note, Karenna is currently offering a free 30 minute consultation to anyone who registers during these early stages so get on in there. She is amazing and you can be anywhere in the world as she consults over Skype. We did all our sessions that way and despite my early scepticism it actually worked really well.

Back in the coming weeks to tell you all about my new project. Woooo!

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Did you know that your story is truly inspiring? 

Your fertility story may be just the right support and information to help someone else going through infertility and we’d love you to tell your story on Your Fertility Hub.


Your Fertility Hub is a new website and community which aims to inspire women and couples, help make their fertility journeys more positive and assist them in getting the right information, tools and support to find their way out of infertility. 

We are looking for individuals who have gone through or are going through infertility to tell their stories. We know just how important other people’s stories are to people and we want to showcase as many as possible on Your Fertility Hub. 

Each inspiring story will talk about that person’s unique journey, say what helped, what worked and what didn’t, inspiring quotes or tips and although not completely anonymous will only display first name and a thumbnail image. It’s so important to put a face to a story so we really appreciate your courage in submitting your story.

Click here to submit your story

Thank you and we will be in touch to confirm your story and to send you the link once live for you to review. Currently the new site is aiming to go live in early August and we will keep you posted. 

The End of Emily and Eric?

I have been saying for a long time that I would write about where things are at with me and Eric. I know I am not obliged to share any of the details at all but am happy to as it is part of how this story began – with our unusual relationship. I have mainly held back as things have felt really volatile so I didn’t really know where things were heading myself, although in my heart I think I really did know what was happening; I just had to accept it.

Anyway, here is the update on that.

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We had that conversation yesterday. You know the one. The civil one that is the death knell to any relationship.  Continue reading

Why I will never close this blog and making my grass greener

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I know I don’t write here anymore folks and, well, it is what it is. Two kids (one that doesn’t sleep well) leaves me spinning most days. I hardly get any me time and when I do I’m just not pumped to write.

My brain writes posts all the time. But then the act of sitting down to type them up is more than I can bear. I’ve been through writing slumps like this before. And maybe I will come back to it but for right now, I’m just taking it one day at a time.

One thing I have feeling the urge to do lately is to start tending to my own metaphorical garden. I feel like my grass is lacking all the things it needs to be the green of lovely tended lawns. Right now, my grass looks like it has been through a long hot summer with little to no rain. It is limp and brown and dry but with patches of green as I get a bit of self care in here and there. Continue reading

Some days.

Some days I’m a super mum. 

But not today.

Some days I bounce out of bed and feed two children and myself, dress us all, wash the dishes and bounce out of the house by 9am and I don’t feel stressed at all. 

But not today. Or yesterday for that matter. 

Today we got up at 6am and I was struggling to get us out of the house by 1130. 1130! What the fuck was I doing? Not the dishes. I tried three times to do those and still there are some that I didn’t get to.

Not the Christmas wrapping or packing for our trip on Thursday.

Not any housework…although I did get the clothes hung out and now realise at almost 730pm I didn’t manage to bring them in. Better get on that. 

I had plans for today but I didn’t get most of that done either. Turns out today had plans for me. 

I had a coffee at 5pm to get a boost to see me through the evening. Didn’t work. Yesterday I made time for a 20 min meditation instead (yes I know! 20 mins!) and I felt so much better for it. Need to make that part of every day. But it wasn’t a part of today.

I love my kids but…no not BUT. I love my kids. That is a statement that should stand in its own. I love them and their itty bitty smiley whiny faces. 

The truth is though that some days it is more relentless than I can handle. I am so tired of not being able to achieve anything. I feel like that little mouse spinning on its wheel. Spin spin spin. All that effort and going fucking nowhere.

Maybe tomorrow will be better but I’m not holding my breathe. Tomorrow I WILL meditate. Give the day a freaking chance at least.

Today, however, today I drink wine. And put my feet up. And forget the shit that surrounds me and do what I can do while repeatedly settling my non sleeper of a baby. 

I’d forgotten how relentless parenting littlies is. BeeGee is on the move now. That little punk started commando crawling at 5.5 months!! Most babies sit first and then crawl. My babies give the middle finger to what most babies do and jam to the beat of their own drum which usually I love. Just not today.

Lucky they are delicious and cute and I know it gets easier or I might just gouge my eyes out with a fork. 

Young baby time is such a survival time of life. Some mums have it all together but I’m just not one of those mums it turns out. Oh well. My kids don’t know the difference. I complained I looked haggered and tired in a photo recently and Monkey said “I don’t see that, Mum. I think you look beautiful.”

And even on my worst days, like today, that’s what they see. Beautiful gorgeous mum. Their everything. 

They wear me down to the bone and bring me joy all in the same moment some times. Especially today.

Tummy Trouble in Baby Paradise – Part 2

You guys, we have turned a corner. I am beside myself with happiness with BeeGee’s progress lately.

  • We have YELLOW poop. No more green yukky stuff. It is still mucus-y which I guess is still something about her tummy but I will take mucus-y yellow over green any day. I am happy to call this baseline poo.

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Tummy Troubles in Baby Paradise – Part 1

I had this whole big long post all written out about our tummy troubles but then I decided  it was too long and too boring and probably more specific than any of you needed to know. If someone pops by because of a google search about their baby and allergens and green mucousy poo and wants more info then please leave a comment and I’ll answer any questions you have. Today we are going to try for the streamlined version.

But before that I’m going to spam you with this photo of my babies. ♥♥

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Isn’t it just the best? This photo of them laughing together makes my heart want to explode with happiness. Continue reading