Affirmations, anxiety and my latest scan! – 8 weeks 3 days

I am convinced I can see two bright white eye dots showing from midway down from the top of Blob’s oval shape (which I think is the head). I actually reckon the baby is standing up with hand on hip which makes me think it must be a girl. Ha! Although I also did think it looked a bit like Bart Simpson.

Well first things first…I had my 8 week scan today and baby was in there being all cute and stuff. Hooray! Heartbeat was thumping away and bub was measuing on target at 1.7cm. All good stuff. Next checkup is 12 days from now when I am exactly 10 weeks. We are going to be doing the NIPT blood test (tests for chromosomal issues) and they do a scan when they do that apparently. Results return in 5 days so we will have test and results in the same week which is a relief.

I had a pretty anxious week last week which saw me up at hospital AGAIN convinced I had a leg clot. I didn’t. I still get a cramp in that same spot so I’m glad I had it checked as it would have sent me crazy but still, felt dumb that it wasn’t necessary. AND that I was at the hospital twice in the same week.

I followed all that with a session with the Fertility Coach on Sunday which helped so much. She has me getting some pregnancy affirmations printed out to stick around my house and I’m finding the whole shift in mindset away from “something really random is going to go wrong” to “this is a happy healthy pregnancy” really valuable. I was so much calmer yesterday and Monday. Today I have been a bit edgy, I think because it is scan day, but I am confident I can shake it off again tomorrow.

I’ve officially moved into my old maternity bras. My cup runneth over and there was just no other choice. That’s a full 5 weeks before I made the transition in my first pregnancy! The bump is out, the boobs are out, new life is just bursting forth it would appear.

What else? I am still navigating the OB investigation route. I keep getting conflicting information from patients so I’m just going to have interview a few I think and go with my gut.  Also I found out the private hospital I will be birthing at offers I one on one midwife service – you don’t share your midwife with anyone else – so I’m wondering now whether or not I really need a doula. I think at the moment that I will probably still get one but more investigating needs to be done there. I don’t want to pay $1-2k to have the doula standing around drinking tea.

I have been really rather nauseous the past week and a half but then today woke up and felt completely normal. So weird and rather disconcerting but I was a little relieved today as it meant I got to have a delicious breakfast and not feel like I was about to vom. Gotta be thankful for small mercies. I think with Monkey I had things ease around this point too only to come back with a vengeance around 10 weeks before slipping off quietly into the night. I am hoping for more of the same this time around.

My fertility specialist was on the news the other night trying to raise awareness about silent endometriosis and how important it is to do the surgery and have a look for people with unexplained infertility. And that then to have it removed can mean instant pregnancy success for many women. I told him I saw it and he said he is just trying so hard to change the way some clinics treat this condition (in that they won’t do the surgery and won’t look). He had a couple of patients in the news clip and joked that maybe I could be in his next one. Ha! But seriously though, I feel so strongly about this. If you have are repeatedly having no success then I urge you to ask your clinics to have a look. The research is there, there are doctors that are onto this shit.

I can only find a link to the video on Facebook (so if you don’t have Facebook you won’t be able to view it) but if you are at all interested here it is: https://www.facebook.com/9newsgoldcoast/videos/10153147867951723/