This week has been a rocky one, full ups and downs, peaks and troughs, hills and valleys.
MONDAY: Beta 2 comes in at a lovely 140. Hooray! I am 4 weeks 2 days pregnant and I have a nice strong number. High fives and fist bumps all round.
TUESDAY: Nice busy day chasing Monkey around but the calculations in my mind commence. So if Saturday was 14 dpo that means I’m now 17dpo or, 4 weeks and 1, 2, 3; 4 weeks and 3 days pregnant. So 6 more days to my beta, 4 more days until 5 weeks.
WEDNESDAY: Remained reasonably sane as worked in the morning and had acupuncture in the afternoon. Despite being awake 3 times the previous night (midnight, 2am and 4:30am) I don’t doze on the bed which I find weird. I was all bounce bounce bounce. NOT a good sign. This is my anxiety rising.
Almost kept child home from daycare (complaining of sore ears) but in the end he went and came home sick. I’m winning at parenting. Scoot off to the Dr to discover the poor child has a temperature and a bilateral middle ear infection. He is now on his first course of antibiotics EVER and I feel like bitch face mum for not noticing this were so bad.
Ditch CoQ10 today which seems unimportant but later on the week I will start to wonder. Anyone who takes it know about taking it during pregnancy? Of course I will consult my Dr, just looking for feedback.
THURSDAY: Monkey home sick today but he seems OK. We go down to visit Eric for lunch and a play in the sun. Fun times and it all goes well except my anxiety starts to set in when we return home. My trigger is always shallow breathing, like I’m about to hyperventilate into a panic attack any second. Haven’t had it like this in quite awhile.
Boobs start to hurt like a mofo. Like I’m almost groaning the pain is so intense. I love it as it means hormones and hormones mean (hopefully) growing baby. Gimme more of this.
FRIDAY: anxiety. anxietY. anxieTY. anxiETY. anxIETY. anXIETY. aNXIETY. ANXIETY. Dreadful day for it. Feel on the verge of a panic attack which is pretty bad for me. Haven’t felt this in a long time. Start to wonder if ditching the CoQ10 has had an effect? Do some research and it does seem to be noted for its assistance with anxiety and depression. I have really felt balanced this year, especially since returning from Canada when vigilant with the meds. Imagine if it’s this? I always just thought it was the zinc because I started it around the same time but I’m still taking the zinc and today felt I was going to EXPLODE.
Must email doctor.
SATURDAY: Caaaaaaaaaaalm. Thank god for sleep is all I can say. It flicks my reset switch and no matter how anxious I am I always wake calm. I’m grateful for that as I know it’s that not that way for everyone.
My anxiety hasn’t crept up on me today but I took a CoQ10 yesterday and today after I figured out it was the thing I had eliminated. I wonder if I’m right? Emailing doctor now to find out if it is OK to take.
Oh oh oh 5 weeks today! We flicked to the next week. Weeeeeee. I’d be happy but my symptoms have been very low yesterday and today after the intense boobiness earlier this week so now I’m worried, of course. Never a sane moment around here.
SUNDAY: I am feeling like I am not pregnant. I slept right through last night which is unheard of for me in early pregnancy. And all my other symptoms are super mild. I’m not even sure if a strong beta tomorrow will ease my mind as it could have surged during the week and stalled today and the beta will never show that. My progesterone could be holding off any bleeding and well, I don’t sound very hopeful do I? I told Eric all this this morning and he sounded so sad and then I felt bad for spoiling his day. *sigh*
What a week. Oh what a week. I burst into tears 3 times this afternoon for no apparently reason and anxiety is moving into the red zone again.
MONDAY: Sore boobies again. A great start to beta day. Fills me with a bit more confidence for what may be possible. A very busy work day ahead so hopefully the call will seem to come quickly. We are hoping for a minimum of 1200.
OMG no result until tomorrow!!!! Party my fault, partly their fault. I am blaming baby brain! Basically I used an old form and I was support to cross out FSH and write BHCG and FORGOT. They told me to use the old form and do it so I am partly blaming them for not just sending me the right form but I also did just legitimately forget. IDIOT.
After all the wind up and stress of course this would happen. I had to laugh and trust me, I did…kind of manically… or I might have cried.
Good news is that based on all my other results it appears that this one will be fine. Or good. Or just as it should be. Whatever. I’ve kinda been feeling preggers today so that makes me happy.
Back tomorrow with the news. Adios amigos!
**UPDATE** – QML are now my favourite pathology group EVER. They ran the blood and got the result back in less than an hour in a half and it’s GREAT.
Beta #3 = 2000 Whoooooooot! doubling time 1.8 days or 43.79 hours. GREAT.