I just thought I should report in and let you know that I’m doing OK. I had my final beta yesterday and it had dropped from 2700 on Friday to 1300 so there are no miracles in this womb today.
Mostly I am doing fine. I’ve been busy because I work and I have a 3 year old and that’s just life. There is no peace to experience a miscarriage here. Of course this week I happen to have the busiest week ever – I’m working 3 full days which I don’t normally do PLUS Eric is away for the weekend so I’m on full time parenting duty with no break in sight. Fucking Murphy and his stupid law.
I have moments of devastation. A friend offered to take Monkey overnight one night so that Eric and i could have time together and that moved me to tears. And yesterday was a day of blood gushing (it literally pours out of you – it’s awful) and at one point it surprised me so much that I became overwhelmed with grief at what it represented. But mostly I am fine.
I have an appointment with the specialist next Wednesday. We will do another blood then and see where the HCG is at. I will also have a scan to see if anything is hanging around. At that point they will decide whether or not I need a D&C or if my body has done the job naturally. I am keen to get moving on the next cycle so we don’t waste too much time so I am waiting to hear back on when I can start my priming again. Might as well get this show on the road.
And that’s it. That’s where we are at. And I’m doing OK.