Ugh. It wouldn’t be early pregnancy without one of these posts. I honestly thought I was going to get lucky and get through this one without a blip. All those mornings of seeing nothing spooky at the morning wipe ritual have given me a false sense of security.
Yes, there is a ritual. Each morning when I wake super early I usually decide that’s the toilet time to “check” the pregnancy status. Is it a happy day or a freak out day? With Monkey I did have some early spotting and even implantation bleeding but this time there has been none of that. Just nice white paper to brighten my day. Then I send a text to Eric that says “All good here” and he responds with a smile and we get on with our day.
It is unhelpful that I don’t know how far along I am but I’m going to say about 6 weeks today-ish and today the ritual didn’t end with the sparkling white paper, it ended with brown snotty looking paper. Not too much, but it was there, no mistaking it. I almost had to look twice I was so surprised. I did not expect it at all.
Good news is that I don’t feel any ominous cramping (although now that I say that I feel something) or any of that so hopefully this is just that normal spotting you get because your body is adjusting to a pregnancy. Please please please please please let it just be that. PLEASE. God PLEASE. I am begging you PLEASE. Can you hear me? Please. I don’t know how to say it any other way.
I have another spooky thing going on too that I totally forgot to mention last week in my wigging out. I have another lump! This one is to the left of my left breast on the upper chest wall. I actually wasn’t even sure if it was breast related it was in a such a funny spot but the GP says yes it is. It is a different type of lump to the last one – it is more soft and squishy but definitely a lump. As my breasts are all complex and it is on the same side as the last lump they are sending me back for an ultrasound of that side only. I’m having that today (this afternoon).
I will keep an eye on the spotting and call the clinic this morning to mention it. Maybe they’ll let me have my beta one day early. It is supposed to be tomorrow but maybe they’ll send me today if I sook at them. I also have an acupuncture appointment today so they should be able to help with spotting too. Hopefully this is all merely a blip in an otherwise healthy pregnancy. Fingers crossed.