Well this has been an excruciating couple of days. When I saw the Dr this morning I told her it was harrowing. Then I felt over dramatic but whatever. It’s definitely been up and down.
Yesterday I did another HPT with FMU and the line was as strong as the one I got on Monday. I thought that was interesting. And then I noticed I was having a few small pregnancy symptoms – mostly sore boobs and a big sensitivity to smells. So I started to build up hope a little more yesterday that maybe the test was really early and that’s why the number was so low.
This morning I did another (and my last) HPT. This time the line seemed a little lighter so I got depressed again. I am a maniac. Losing. The. Plot. I have resolved to not buy anymore of those damn tests. They are making me crazy.
I had my second beta this morning and basically tried to prepare myself for the worst.
Well, my beta went up. It is now 29 (beta 1 was 18). So it didn’t double but I’m reading that doubling in the early stages can sometimes be more like 72 hours than 48 so we could be OK. Obviously they want to monitor me and make sure it continues to go up and that I don’t have an ectopic pregnancy (slow doubling is a sign of ectopics, as is later than expected positive pregnancy results).
My next beta is Monday – that’s 4 sleeps away. For the love of all that is holy I hope I can make it! That one will really tell us the story. Eeeeep!
So, this is better news than it was on Tuesday. While we aren’t anywhere near out of the woods, this is actually a small step forward and for that I am so grateful. I am actually feeling cautiously optimistic and so is Eric. Fingers crossed.
Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers. You guys are amazing.