Today is fertilisation day. What does this mean for those of you not playing the IVF game at home? Well it means that today I find out how many of my eggs were actually fertilised by sperm after spending 24 hours hanging out in an incubator.
I had 16 eggs in my harvest if you recall. Of those, 14 were good enough to be submitted for fertilisation (this is a great result). Of the 14 only 2 fertilised. Two. 2. Fucking 2.
I am pretty shocked. I should have known something like this would happen. I tempted fate by actually saying to Eric that I wasn’t worried about this number, that given that we’d conceived a number of times previously we should get a great fertilisation rate.
Just like we’d fall pregnant easily because we dd the first time. Just like I never thought I’d have fertility issues. I almost feel like everything I think will be OK the universe decides to throw at me as difficult and shit.
Anyway I feel like a complete cow for whining as we got 2, right? And 2 is better than zero. I should be grateful for small mercies. AND all you need is one to take. AND odds of falling pregnant in the first 2 embryo transfers are actually ridiculously high so it’s not like we aren’t in there with a big chance.
So I am grateful. And a bit gutted and fucked off too.
Apparently Dr Davidson often transfers a bit early when there aren’t a large number of embryos to choose from so instead of going in Day 5 (Sunday) for my embryo transfer it may actually be Day 3 or 4 instead. We just have to wait and see how they go and if they divide the way they are supposed to. This is the stage I am worried about. Our embryos haven’t divided so well inside me – this is the glitch we have been facing. So I just have to wish and hope that things will be OK.
The clinic is recommending ICSI if we have to do another egg harvest. ICSI is where they actually take an individual sperm and inject it into the egg to force fertilisation. Successful fertilisation is more likely this way.
We asked if we could do that with the eggs and sperm we have left now that aren’t fertilising but the clinic doesn’t offer this service. It is apparently called Rescue ICSI and has a very low rate of success as it is not done when the eggs are fresh. They said some clinics do offer it but not many due to it’s very low success rate. Fair enough.
At this stage they are leaving the eggs and sperm in the incubator in case there are any that do a late fertilisation. You never know. They are calling me in the morning to update.
Anyway, YOU ONLY NEED ONE. And we have two. So I’m just trying to keep this in perspective.
That’s all for today.