The baby that wasn’t and test results

I’m sure you have guessed by now that things didn’t turn out so well with the whole pregnancy thing. .I got my bloods back from the Dr and my HCG levels were low and dropping (on the second day they were 12 or something like that). I had been bleeding quite a lot so I wasn’t surprised.

I’m actually feeling OK with it all. I fell! And that has been unachievable goal for the last 8 months. Plus, you hear a lot of stories about a healthy pregnancy following a chemical pregnancy and I truly feel that it is just around the corner for us so that is helping me. Aside from that I’m a pretty pragmatic person. Just pick myself up and keep moving on, putting one foot in front of the other. Apparently that’s a common trait for someone like me anyway..which brings me to my other test results.

Pyrrole disorder & undermethylation

I went back this week to see my expensive holistic GP. I was kind of hoping that there was something really obvious in my results that meant I couldn’t maintain a pregnancy (like thyroid issue or low progesterone) but there’s not and I’m actually glad about that. It makes it more likely that it is a one off. So to me that’s a good sign.

She also says I have way too low zinc and way too high copper which is consistent with something called Pyrolle Disorder. This seems to be one of those things that not everybody believes in but it is apparently a hemoglobin disorder, diagnosed by a urine test (you get a pyrrole raiting) and treated with super strong supplements from a compounding chemist. What do I think? Well I’m not sure. I don’t have many (any?) of the symptoms that are listed but I do have low zinc and high copper and my pyrrole raiting was up around 400 which is apparently one of the highest she has ever seen. I can’t remember what the rating was supposed to be but it was less than 100. Given that it can be corrected with supplementation then I am prepared to try it.

I have this in conjunction with undermethylation which means low production of serotonin (hence the anxiety and depression battles) and melotonin. Something to do with low zinc again. This is also one of those is it really real things but again, treated with supplements from the compounding chemist so happy to give it a go.

The Dr believes it will sort the anxiety / depression out completely so I’m really interested from that perspective. Thankfully it is not as debilitating for me as it seems to be for some people with these issues (if you read the symptoms etc it sounds AWFUL – I’m not experiencing things to this degree at all). One of the big things is memory loss and if I can get some help there then that would be AWESOME. I really do feel it has disintegrated significantly since I had Kiddo.

My next appointment is in 6 weeks and she said I should notice a massive difference by then. In essence, all these treatments seem to address an imbalance of minerals in the body and I’m down with fixing that. It stands to reason that they would get out of whack.

How this relates to the baby making

Well apparently once the imbalances are sorted it makes conception easier. I don’t know if this is true (can’t find much in my research) however a friend of my hairdresser went to see this same Dr after trying to conceive for 4 years (including IVF). She simply could not get pregnant. She had the whole high copper thing going on too. Within one month of going on the Drs supplements she was pregnant. Coincidence? Who the hell would know. But why not try?

We are taking a rest from baby making this month to let my body get back into the swing of things after hormones changing this cycle. That and I don’t particularly want a Christmas baby. I feel very strongly that our baby isn’t far away though. I’ll tell you why…

This is going to sound totally monkey crackers…bear with me.

Right when we decided to have Kiddo I had this little image of a boy in my mind appear out of nowhere. That little boy was around 2 and looked pretty much exactly like Kiddo looks today. From that moment on I knew I was having a boy. The other night, a couple of days after I started bleeding I had the same thing happen. Another little boy sitting on a little kiddie trike. Immediately my mind called out the name that we have chosen for our next boy and I just knew it was him. It was exactly the same experience that I had with Kiddo. So he is coming to us. I really believe it.

Maybe it is just my mind playing tricks because I need to believe in something and that’s OK if that is true. But I believe my little boy is on his way and will be here before we know it. And I don’t see anything is wrong with that.