I went back to the Dr today and insisted on blood test to check my HCG levels and whether or not they are rising.The way that works is this: you get a test the first day and then again 48 hours later. Your HCG levels are meant to double in that time. So, I’ve had the first one.
But this evening I started bleeding and it is more than what I would call spotting and I do feel as though I am getting a period.
I feel like I’m being made to appreciate all the lessons that go on with conception. We got so lucky with Kiddo and fell on the second month so now I feel I’m being made to understand what it feel like to try and try and try and not fall. And then when I fall, I’m being made to learn what it feels like to fall and then lose.
Far out.Why exactly?
As you can probably tell I’m a bit frustrated.
Anyway, the thing I am pleased about in all this is that it has happened before my expensive Dr appointment on Wednesday as it gives her a lot more information to work with. I CAN fall but have struggled to maintain. I’m hoping more than anything that she will exclaim “Well of course, look at these results, you are clearly deficient in XYZ” and that it will all be clear and we can work on a course of action to assist me to keep a pregnancy next time round. Because there WILL be a next time round.
Funnily enough this has all happened at the end of what can only be termed a fantastic day with Kiddo. We did a bike ride and park this morning (he rode, I walked) and then he had a play at his best buddy’s house for an hour while I went to the Dr and then this afternoon after nap time we went to the local Wildlife Sanctuary and took the train around a couple of times. It was fun. Tonight when I put him to bed I gave him an extra long cuddle and thought about how blessed I was to have him. He is a gift. And I understand and appreciate that more than anything now.
Thanks for your support everyone. There WILL be a baby at the end of all this. I know it. We’ll get one. Just not today.