The thing I hate most about charting is that it gives you a picture about pregnancy likelihood before you are really ready to receive it.
I know, I know, you find out one way or another with a period but there is something about that which is different. With the natural end of your cycle you are gearing up for it anyway and are probably getting an indication one way or another that you were successful or not. Charting kind of butts its head in early. It rips away hope when hope is still building.
Case in point, today.
I am charting at the moment because my acupuncturist wants me to and to be fair, it is giving us useful information. BUT she can already see that I haven’t had the post ovulation burst of temp that I need. To her that means I am lacking in kidney yang or something like that but it can also be a sign of low progesterone.
At worst, with low progesterone and a shortish luteal phase I could have a luteal phase defect but I’m really hoping that I don’t. I do remember that I was using some of that yam cream when I got pregnant with Kiddo (which helps with progesterone) so maybe that did more than I gave it credit for.
I currently admin on a baby Facebook page one day per week and no one there has a clue who I am so I threw out a “tricks to conceive” question. One lady came back with something I’d never heard of: an essential oil called Progessence.
It is “essentially” BA BOOM a wild yam extract (which you find in the creams that help this sort of thing) that is combined with some essential oils and the like and purports to assist your body to find its natural balance. You get one little teeny bottle for $83 inc taxes and shipping so it ain’t cheap but I’m willing to try ANYTHING at this stage and clearly my progesterone needs a helping hand.
Bless Eric’s little heart too. He is going me halves in all fertility related stuff.
Not sure if we have missed the boat this cycle but will definitely be starting it as soon as I can.
The other thing is that maybe things aren’t as bad as they seem. In my research some people were suggesting that occasionally it can take a few days post ovulation for the progesterone to really get going so maybe all is not lost.
We’ll see. I’ve lost hope for this cycle now and that is a really CRUD place to be.
I so desperately wanted to break detox today. It shows how linked eating is to our emotions. I didn’t but I did eat some gluten free, dairy free, nasties free chips and chocolate so I’m not going to achieve my full week with nothing processed but meh, what can you do. It’s better than the alternative. And I’ve taken some action so I feel good about that.
If anyone knows anything about such things feel free to leave helpful hints and handy comments. Hugs are good too.
‘Til next time.